words, unspoken

why is it so hard
for me
to say, "i love you"

those three words,
so undefined,
somehow define
my whole mentation of you


i know that what i feel
is strong, so true
yet i'm still scared
to express myself, like
holding a 50 pound weight,
sinking in water
and i know this sounds stupid,
but i'm afraid to let go of it,
afraid to lose what i now have
knowing that, in reality
i could have so much more,
but i choose to constantly
drown myself, in love

and what i'm saying
probably makes
no sense to you
but love, itself
is not sensible
and wasnt made for
us to figure out

i guess,
to say, "i love you"
would be giving you
my heart
and i'm not ready, for
it to be broken, so those

three words
in my mind
tickling my soul
roam in my thoughts
unspoken

   (i wish there was another way
   to let you know that,
   i love you)